I – Artist
Chapter Two – Who Got The Football?
After telling her infamous story about slamming my head on the floor in order to make me stop hitting my head on the wall, Rosemary went into her epic tale about our father giving my brother, Mark, the paints, and – I the football! That’s Mark being forced to put his arm around his baby brother. This is 1949, and I am three years old. I believe it is Easter, because I see a Easter Egg basket in his hand. I do not have one because Victor hated to buy us toys, and if he was forced to do so because it was that time of the year, then we had to share the one precious gift. When Rosemary brought me home from the hospital, my brother had a conniption fit. He threw himself on the floor and started banging his head.
“What the fuck were you thinking? I was the – other special man of the house. Take him back. I don’t want him! You betrayed me!”
“Now, Mark, be a good older brother, and share your basket. Put your arm around him and show how muh you love him!” said our mother, who knelt on one knee in order to get the money shot!
Standing up, Rosemary started to howl. Her laughter rang down our street in Concord. She loved taking these images of utter disgust and hatred. This was a family tradition. We both are feeling humiliated. What kind of mother do we got? Is she a sadist – like her husband? I’ve read allot of Artist Bios, and there is always a sadist or two lurking about.
After Rosemary stabbed Victor between the eyes with a steak knife when we were twelve and eleven – forcing him out of our enmeshed home – there came the long siliques about who fucked us up the most.
“Your father was an ass. He gave Mark the art supplies, and – Greg the football! What a stupid son-of-a-bitch! I should have had Fred’s kids. Fred is a big success – and real smart!”
I was being praised in the seventh grade for showing amazing talent as an artist. Mark was on the championships football team at Oakland High School. When it came to doing house chores;
“Mark is exempt from helping around the house. His job is to do good at school so he can get a good job – and support his mother in her old age.”
Both of my parents were Narcissistic Monsters, who fought with each other, then their children – over the limelight. It is hard to believe, but those two young boys were seen as – The Competition – and thus we were constantly whittled down to size and given a handicap.. We were forced to compete with our siblings for everything so we would be weakened and confused. Owning a real identity, was forbidden. .
I will be seeing my therapist tomorrow. We ,made a road map for my therapy. We are going to talk about Success. What does that mean to me? What I will tell her, is that My Therapy is a success! I am going to read her my two chapters of my story. I will tell her – I stood up to mentally ill, and criminal tyrants. I found the truth…..If you isolate Vic, Rosemary, and Mark, then you have three very fucked up monsters who went out of their way to make the life of those of who came after them – a living hell! Their relationship – was an utter failure! Those three failed in every way.
A Canadian expert predicts the U.S. will be taken over by a tyrant and become a Dictatorship. The Three Prescos – led the way! These are neo-Nazis who experimented on me. They did all they could to destroy me – and FAILED! THEY ARE FAILURES! Let me be a good lesson to you all! A…….Art Lesson!
Narcissistic personality disorder — one of several types of personality disorders — is a mental condition in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for excessive attention and admiration, troubled relationships, and a lack of empathy for others. But behind this mask of extreme confidence lies a fragile self-esteem that’s vulnerable to the slightest criticism.
A narcissistic personality disorder causes problems in many areas of life, such as relationships, work, school or financial affairs. People with narcissistic personality disorder may be generally unhappy and disappointed when they’re not given the special favors or admiration they believe they deserve. They may find their relationships unfulfilling, and others may not enjoy being around them.
Treatment for narcissistic personality disorder centers around talk therapy (psychotherapy).
The US could be under a rightwing dictatorship by 2030, a Canadian political science professor has warned, urging his country to protect itself against the “collapse of American democracy”.
“We mustn’t dismiss these possibilities just because they seem ludicrous or too horrible to imagine,” Thomas Homer-Dixon, founding director of the Cascade Institute at Royal Roads University in British Columbia, wrote
“In 2014, the suggestion that Donald Trump would become president would also have struck nearly everyone as absurd. But today we live in a world where the absurd regularly becomes real and the horrible commonplace.”
Homer-Dixon’s message was blunt: “By 2025, American democracy could collapse, causing extreme domestic political instability, including widespread civil violence. By 2030, if not sooner, the country could be governed by a rightwing dictatorship.”
The author cited eventualities centered on a Trump return to the White House in 2024, possibly including Republican-held state legislatures refusing to accept a Democratic win.
Trump, he warned, “will have only two objectives, vindication and vengeance” of the lie that his 2020 defeat by Joe Biden was the result of electoral fraud.
A “scholar of violent conflict” for more than four decades, Homer-Dixon said Canada must take heed of the “unfolding crisis”.
“A terrible storm is coming from the south, and Canada is woefully unprepared. Over the past year we’ve turned our attention inward, distracted by the challenges of Covid-19, reconciliation and the accelerating effects of climate change.
“But now we must focus on the urgent problem of what to do about the likely unraveling of democracy in the United States. We need to start by fully recognising the magnitude of the danger. If Mr Trump is re-elected, even under the more optimistic scenarios the economic and political risks to our country will be innumerable.”
Homer-Dixon said he even saw a scenario in which a new Trump administration, having effectively nullified internal opposition, deliberately damaged its northern neighbor.
“Under the less-optimistic scenarios, the risks to our country in their cumulative effect could easily be existential, far greater than any in our federation’s history. What happens, for instance, if high-profile political refugees fleeing persecution arrive in our country and the US regime demands them back. Do we comply?”
Trump, he said, “and a host of acolytes and wannabes such as Fox [News]’s Tucker Carlson and Georgia representative Marjorie Taylor Greene”, had transformed the Republican party “into a near-fascist personality cult that’s a perfect instrument for wrecking democracy”.
Worse, he said, Trump “may be just a warm-up act”.
“Returning to office, he’ll be the wrecking ball that demolishes democracy but the process will produce a political and social shambles,” Homer-Dixon said.
“Still, through targeted harassment and dismissal, he’ll be able to thin the ranks of his movement’s opponents within the state, the bureaucrats, officials and technocrats who oversee the non-partisan functioning of core institutions and abide by the rule of law.
“Then the stage will be set for a more managerially competent ruler, after Mr Trump, to bring order to the chaos he’s created.”