This morning I awoke and felt the horrible truth I have evaded for months:
“My sisters and mother……are dead!”
Above is a frog drawn by Sandra Faulkner who claimed she interviewed my late sister for her biography ‘When You Close Your Eyes’ that was completed by Tom Snyder, the second ghost writer Stacey Pierrot hired to tell the story of a world famous female artist – who authored 270 pages of a autobiography – that has been disappeared. This is FRAUD – ART FRAUD! This is the tip of the iceberg. My newfound daughter was lured away from me because her Stage Mother wanted our daughter in our family story. The Hansons never met Rosamond.
Last night I watched the English version of the movie ‘Gaslight’. In Snyder’s book Christine is severely gaslighted by several men in her life, and by Snyder. I suspect Heather’s mother writes most of her posts on her Women’s Empowerment facebook page. This is more fraud because Heather solicits money from people for her advice. I believe it was THE MOTHER who googled for a fake diagnosis of the man who gave her daughter life.
I rescued Patrice Hnson from her insane husband who was brutalizing her young sons in 1984. When she told me she was thinking of going back with him after he appeared in front of my abode – with a baseball bat – threatening to UNBORN me, I asked her to leave because even the police get killed coming between such a dangerous relationships. Randall Delpiano was a San Quinton convict convicted twice of impersonating Bob Weir of the Grateful Dead. Heather Hanson was Heather Delpiano. I did not know I had a daughter until Randy’s daughter came into my life in 2000 when she was sixteen. She and her mother were very interested in getting in Christine Rosamond’s biography.
My sister was a world famous artist who signed her work ‘Rosamond’ a name that means ‘Rose of the World’. I told my daughter and her mother an outsider ending up being sold Rosamond’s legacy and had hired a ghost writer to author her biography. I told this Mother & Child there was Art Fraud going on in regards to the first ghost writer being the illustrator of Dunkin the Frog, and not my sister. I told them to stay away from Vicki. Instead, they disappeared from my life for two years in what was a illegal kidnapping.
Art Lessons For My Daughter – One
Here is the first video I made of four. When I finished making them I realized I had tried to give Heather something very valuable…..INTEGRITY! I offered this to Christine, but her insane success came about by selling herself short. She betrayed my principles of art. She gave me credit for her success that she wanted me to assist her with. She made me an offer – that I refused! Last night we had a faint conversation, the first since her death in 1994. We used to have psychic conversations all the time. Those who knew us compared us to a beautiful husband and wife. We were very close. Rosamond was getting over the deep shame she felt for putting the real artist of our family in the shadow of her fraudulent success. I use the her fraudulent biography to begin my lessons to Heather Hanson.
In law, fraud is intentional deception to secure unfair or unlawful gain, or to deprive a victim of a legal right. Fraud can violate civil law (i.e., a fraud victim may sue the fraud perpetrator to avoid the fraud or recover monetary compensation), a criminal law (i.e., a fraud perpetrator may be prosecuted and imprisoned by governmental authorities), or it may cause no loss of money, property or legal right but still be an element of another civil or criminal wrong. The purpose of fraud may be monetary gain or other benefits, for example by obtaining a passport, travel document, or driver’s license, or mortgage fraud, where the perpetrator may attempt to qualify for a mortgage by way of false statements.
A hoax is a distinct concept that involves deliberate deception without the intention of gain or of materially damaging or depriving a victim.
Pregnant mommas all over the world are rising up and feeling empowered by the contrast Covid-19 is presenting.
This photo embodies how I am choosing to perceive this pandemic. As an opportunity to practice resiliency.
Mommas who can embrace the gift of this unique and uncertain circumstance are doing something very powerful.
💗 They are becoming greater than their circumstance.
💗 They are harnessing their inner power.
💗 They are strengthening the immune system for themselves and their babies.
💗 They are not sweating the small stuff and honoring what really matters.
💗 They are becoming present and resilient in the face of adversity.
I believe that this new challenge is happening for us mommas as it is pushing us to bring new babies into the world from this empowered state of presence and inner strength.
There are no mistakes! We are powerful! We got this mommas!
As you can see, things are really rounding out around here 🤰
When I first started my journey to improve my well-being, getting pregnant was one of my main motives.
It took loosing 45lbs, two years of trying and one miscarriage. Now it looks like this one is sticking with me. Yay!
I know that this is all Devine right timing and I am over the moon excited about this new life but…….why am I sleepless tonight and feeling so heart broken?
This is actually a feeling that I have had for a few months now but I have not felt like it was safe to share. I have tried sharing a couple of times but fear would stop me and I would delete the post.
I know there is healing to be done here and I am uncertain about posting even still but this is where my heart is and holding it in has kept me from posting at all.
Sharing my authentic truth has been extremely healing for me and others but this truth I am about to share has been the most difficult thus far.
You see, my father, whom I have been estranged from for 8 years, recently discovered my FB page and reached out to me.
He said he said he was proud of the healing work I was doing and sympathized about my miscarriage.
My dad is a daily blogger and he shared with me a blog he had wrote about forgiving me. I did not know that I needed to be forgiven but I was touched by his kind words and excited to see this gentle side of him.
I wanted to respond right away and rekindle our relationship. This is something that I had prayed for and I felt like I could possibly have my Dad back. But something inside me told me to give it a few days and so I did.
A few days later I opened my Dads blog site to see if he had made any more efforts and I was disappointed to say the least.
It is very abnormal for my Dad to say positive things about family in his blog and when I checked to see where he was at on his forgiveness journey, I saw that he had taken it all back. He was right back to being suspicious about my motives and acussing me and my mom of doing terrible things.
Now, as I post this I have made every effort to block him but I somehow think he will still find it and that is ok with me.
I have a lot of love and compassion for my dad even though he has made me, my mom, and anyone who is close to me out to be a monster I still have so much love and compassion for him.
You see, I am pretty sure my Dad suffers from a very rare mental illness call Paranoid Personality Disorder. In looking for a better understanding, I discovered this disorder and it fits my dad to a T.
*Doubt the commitment, loyalty, or trustworthiness of others, believing others are exploiting or deceiving them.
*Are reluctant to confide in others or reveal personal information because they are afraid the information will be used against them.
*Are unforgiving and hold grudges.
Are hypersensitive and take criticism poorly.
*Read hidden meanings in the innocent remarks or casual looks of others.
*Perceive attacks on their character that are not apparent to others; they generally react with anger and are quick to retaliate.
*Have persistent suspicions, without reason, that their spouses or lovers are being unfaithful.
*Are generally cold and distant in their relationships with others, and might become controlling and jealous to avoid being betrayed.
*Cannot see their role in problems or conflicts, believing they are always right.
*Have difficulty relaxing.
*Are hostile, stubborn, and argumentative.
*Tend to develop negative stereotypes of others, especially those from different cultural groups.
This illness is very hard to treat because the paranoid person does not even trust the doctors.
So here I am, feeling heartbroken after many years of thinking I had this under control but I am grateful for these feelings. I see that there is healing for myself to do here and this sharing is my first step.
Leave me a heart if you have ever felt heartbroken over a family member with a mental illness? 💗
My friend Laurie, is a beautiful writer. I am so happy that she has started this blog.
Her message came to me at a perfect time. It is funny how the Universe always brings you what you need.
Today I have been feeling a lot of anger towards a certain difficult person in my life. For the most part I have been able to feel compassion towards this persons behavior but today I have been seriously angry. I had moments of wanting to seek revenge and exploit this person in the same way he has done to me. Yeah, I was so angry, the thoughts of a lawsuit even came to mind.
Instead of acting on this anger I asked myself, “What good would come from acting out my anger”? I played it out in my head and realized that nothing good would come from it. I would just be dishonoring myself by playing a game in the dark that no one can win.
Then I asked my higher self, “What is in this for me”? This is what flowed onto the paper. It felt like it came from a higher place and compassion flowed back into my heart but this time it was for me…….
This is an opportunity to see the light in a dark place. I made a commitment to align myself with the highest good and place my attention on what is working so that I can attract more of what I want in my life. If I choose to let someone else’s actions make me angry and revengeful, then I am giving my power away. The truth is that no one is responsible for my anger or my joy accept for me. From this moment I choose to only give my attention towards people who love and support me just as I am because that is what I deserve. This is an opportunity to exercise my alignment with the truth of who I am, a compassionate, loving and totally worthy woman who is committed to being a light in the world. This is my gift!
So there! That is my story and I am sticking to it.
Resenting difficult people is not the answer.
Thank you Laurie for helping me see this today.
My Mom often quotes A Course In Miracles and this is one she uses all the time. It sure is coming in handy right now.
I recently shared my experience about having a Dad who has paranoid personality disorder. Apparently he had responded to that post but because I had blocked him, I could not see his messages.
A complete stranger reached out and informed me of this and shared that his words were very hurtful. So I took further steps to block him but in doing so I was able to see a few of his comments.
I was not surprised to see that his words were angry and full of wrongful accusations.
I wanted to defend myself and set the story straight but then I remembered these words.
The truth is that there is nothing to defend. I know the truth about who I am and if he can’t see me for the kind loving persona that I am, than that is his loss.
It is not easy knowing that my Dad is my worse critic but I continue to find the blessings in disguise.
The gift is that despite my Dads behavior I still love him. He is teaching me how to have compassion and not take things personally. He is teaching me how important it is to love myself regardless of what anyone else says or does and how to not judge others. He is teaching me how we create our own reality through our perceptions. We can create our own heaven or hell based on what we focus upon.
Abraham Hicks says that if you want to know who your soul mate is look to the one who is giving you the most trouble. Your soul mate will show you the most contrast so that you can learn about yourself.
I am willing to set fear aside and let love guide me. There is no need to defend when love is the leader.