Three days ago I found my Wee Willy tape I made at a campgrounds above Eureka in 1991. I am moving back to Eugene after living in Oakland for two years. There were very few black people in Eugene. Born in Oakland, I had black friends and lovers. I missed them. They were all gone when I moved back to Oakland in 1989.
Wee Willy is the black man I turned into the farther I went north into white man land. If I drove my Cadillac south, the whiter I would get. In L.A. I would become Troy McKenzie, a tan Nordic guy who pretends he is breaking into Hollywood. But, that’s too much work. Troy was born into money. Money is his second name. Troy Money.
My Cadillac was blessed by a eighty-seven year old white woman who traveled around America in tent revival shows – for real. In the movie I have in mind, this blessing becomes a curse, because she bought this car from a black guy named Wee Willy who sold his car because he was going off to Folsom prison. Willy had no kin, and he needed money for the prison commissary. He was a heavy smoker. The spirit of Willy posses me.
Yesterday, I did a video of Wee Willy at my garden. Later, I realized I was experiencing a Disassociation, a Dissociative Fugue. I had a clue where I got my fugie. I texted Marilyn Reed and told her some stuff. I told her I was going to make a video at 1:53 P.M. I finished this video around 4:00 P.M.
Wee Willy has witnessed a black pimp murder his beautiful whore. He is called as a reluctant witness. His lawyer, Gregory Peck, has prepared the Judge and the Court. There will be several levels of personalities Justice herself must be tolerant of, to get to the Truth!
I developed the script in five minutes. There was no rehearsing. This is adlib. I am going to enter ‘The Witness’ in a film what-cha-ma-call-it.
Dissociative fugue, formerly fugue state or psychogenic fugue, is a dissociative disorder and a rare psychiatric disorder characterized by reversible amnesia for personal identity, including the memories, personality, and other identifying characteristics of individuality. The state can last days, months or longer. Dissociative fugue usually involves unplanned travel or wandering, and is sometimes accompanied by the establishment of a new identity. It is a facet of dissociative amnesia, according to the fifth edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5).
After recovery from a fugue state, previous memories usually return intact, and further treatment is unnecessary. Additionally, an episode of fugue is not characterized as attributable to a psychiatric disorder if it can be related to the ingestion of psychotropic substances, to physical trauma, to a general medical condition, or to dissociative identity disorder,[clarification needed] delirium, or dementia. Fugues are precipitated by a series of long-term traumatic episodes. It is most commonly associated with childhood victims of sexual abuse who learn over time to dissociate memory of the abuse (dissociative amnesia).
What is Dissociation?
Dissociation is a mental process that causes a lack of connection in a person’s thoughts, memory and sense of identity. Dissociation seems to fall on a continuum of severity. Mild dissociation would be like daydreaming, getting “lost” in a book, or when you are driving down a familiar stretch of road and realize that you do not remember the last several miles. A severe and more chronic form of dissociation is seen in the disorder Dissociative Identity Disorder, once called Multiple Personality Disorder, and other Dissociative Disorders.
How Common is Dissociation?
Transient and mild dissociative experiences are common. Almost 1/3rd of people say they occasionally feel as though they are watching themselves in a movie, and 4% say they feel that way as much as 1/3rd of the time. The incidence of these experiences is highest in youth and steadily declines after the age of 20.
7% of the population may have suffered from a dissociative disorder at some time. But these disorders are difficult to identify and may go undiagnosed for many years.