I am about to tell my new therapist I believe I suffer from Dissociation. I saw her for the first time yesterday. I told her about the attacks I am getting from very real parasites who want to use me to get to my late sister and make money off OUR struggles to own sanity! For this reason I will not go into much detail, but I need to use this blog as a Work Sheet. I want to show photographs and read important remarks to her – off my cellphone! This is a new approach to therapy? I have kept a log with other therapist. There are pre-session thoughts, and after session thoughts that I will record, but not post. I am not interested in repairing my relationship with my daughter, as much as I am wanting to live out the remainder of my days with some kind of warm fuzzy feelings – minus my crisis. My dissociation is getting worse. When my daughter came into my life in 2000 I told her I can not handle much – real stuff! Best leave me to what I do best – WRITE! She wanted a Party Daddy with a magnificent and radiant personality who will impress all her shallow girlfriends. She did not care that I was – BROKEN! Everything had to be on her terms and expectations. She invented a Mental Condition for me on her facebook. I told her I was a real Party Daddy for twenty years when I drank. I came to believe she wanted me to go back to drinking so her friends would think well of me. I confused – and scared them! All this – inner flection! All that time – alone!
The symptoms often go away on their own. It may take hours, days, or weeks. You may need treatment, though, if your dissociation is happening because you’ve had an extremely troubling experience or you have a mental health disorder like schizophrenia.
What Are Symptoms of Dissociation?
When you have dissociation, you may forget things or have gaps in your memory. You may think the physical world isn’t real or that you aren’t real.
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You may notice other changes in the way you feel, such as:
- Have an out-of-body experience
- Feel like you are a different person sometimes
- Feel like your heart is pounding or you’re light-headed
- Feel emotionally numb or detached
- Feel little or no pain
Other symptoms you can get are:
- Have an altered sense of time
- Not remember how you got somewhere
- Have tunnel vision
- Hear voices in your head
- Have intense flashbacks that feel real
- Become immobile
- Get absorbed in a fantasy world that seems real