Yesterday I wept in my Doctor’s office. I told her that not once did my daughter call me and ask how my treatment for prostate was going, and, I did not hear from one family member on Memorial Day. To top it off, I met a woman named Rose, who was very interested in me, but, I have not been able to get an erection in eight years due to damage done by the forty treatments I received while lying on a metal table with a white towel on my thighs. Five days a week for two months, I never missed a session. My yellow Toyota held on, and got me there. Not once did any family member call and wish me a happy sober birthday.
“It is not about me having pleasure once again, but, pleasing her, responding to this younger woman’s amore. I miss the little things, like, running my fingers through her hair.”
Then, Rita told me about MUSE. I let go a chuckle from midst my sobbing.
“Need you pour salt on my wounds? I have been working on the most difficult chapter on my muse!”
Rita got on her computer, and showed me a video of how to use MUSE. I laughed because it reminded me of the scene from Zardoz, where Zed gets a hard-on for Charlotte Rampling who Rena reminds me of, they owning that intense energy.
I had started a painting to hang in the radiation treatment building, but, did not finish it.
After posting on Zardoz and Kathy Griffin, I decided I would finish my painting of Rena I began over three years ago. She would be Salome, and I, John the Baptist. I took three videos of me before my canvas. Rena will be holding up my head. I thought about taking off my glasses, but, wanted this to be a modern work. When I played them back I noticed a blue light at the top of my head. I wept, for this has been the dilemma of my life since my near-death experience when I was twenty. I was in The Light, and, on my way to India, when Christine Wandel got naked I my bed, got on top of me, and took my virginity away.
My new lesson, was, do enlightened men have sex, and, how? What is that like? Some women have noticed The Light while having sexual intercourse with me. This utterance has gotten me in a world of trouble, but, I would be remiss not divulging it. All this is eluded to in the story of Salome and John. Did he got for it? Did he have her, before she had his head?
For the first time, I grieved for the loss of my manhood. Most of life is a near-death experience. It is at the core of Christian teaching. Why do I see Salome doing her dance in order to place John’s silver-plated head in the cave at Machpelah?
Salome (/səˈloʊmiː/; Greek: Σαλώμη Salōmē, pronounced [salóːmeː]; c. AD 14 – between 62 and 71) was the daughter of Herod II and Herodias. She is infamous for demanding and receiving the head of John the Baptist, according to the New Testament, at ~22 years of age. According to Flavius Josephus‘s Jewish Antiquities, Salome was first married to Philip the Tetrarch of Ituraea and Trakonitis. However, Herod Philip would have been 32 years old at the time of Salome’s birth, as he was himself born in ~19 BCE. After Philip’s death in 34 AD she married Aristobulus of Chalcis and became queen of Chalcis and Armenia Minor. They had three children. Three coins with portraits of Aristobulus and Salome have been found. Her name in Hebrew is שלומית (Shlomiẗ, pronounced [ʃlomiθ]) and is derived from the root word שָׁלוֹם (shalom), meaning “peace”.
Salome is often identified with the unnamed dancing woman in the New Testament (Mark 6:17-29 and Matthew 14:3-11). Christian traditions depict her as an icon of dangerous female seductiveness, notably in regard to the dance mentioned in the New Testament, which is thought to have had an erotic element to it, and in some later transformations it has further been iconized as the Dance of the Seven Veils. Other elements of Christian tradition concentrate on her lighthearted and cold foolishness that, according to the gospels, led to John the Baptist‘s death.
A similar motif was struck by Oscar Wilde in his Salome, in which she plays the role of femme fatale. This parallel representation of the Christian iconography, made even more memorable by Richard Strauss’ opera based on Wilde’s work, is as consistent with Josephus’ account as the traditional Christian depiction; however, according to the Romanized Jewish historian, Salome lived long enough to marry twice and raise several children. Few literary accounts elaborate the biographical data given by Josephus.