When I went to Nebraska to see Rena again, I already knew I could not go on living without beholding her beautiful face. To gaze upon her face was like being in heaven. I could have looked at Rena for an eternity.
After we parted in front of the movie theatre, I went to my motel room to die. My train was leaving early in the morning. I put myself in coma knowing she was with her boyfriend, the artist.
Two months later, I am living in Boston. I am awoken early to see two young women standing at the foot of my bed wearing capes. One of them is sixteen. She is wearing a blue cape because she is a initiate in The Process. Ten minutes later, this beauty is in my bed. We became lovers. I spent Christmas at her mothers.
The other woman was Michelle who I saved from the Boston Mafia. I met with one of the Mafia chiefs in a bar, who pulled out a gun and pointed it at Michelle. I prepared her for this.
When I came back to Boston after being in California for a year, I wore a black Bobby’s cape and riding boots. I had gone to one Process meeting, and turned down their offer to join them. I modeled my look after the Five of Cups in the Tarot. I had come to accept I would never get over Rena and I would forever look into my past, while I am in hell.
A year ago I began a painting of Rena using the photograph she gave me. I came to the problem of what to put in her raised hand. When I put a torch there, I put Rena in a grotto, a cave. All of sudden she came alive! I had found my Eurydice in Hades, and once again…….I behold her beautiful face.
I will attempt to find a publisher, or a producer. I have every intention of immortalizing Rena Victoria Easton. Her beautiful face will live forever.
That is me in a blue cape in the Oakland hills. My lover, Gloria Ehlers, made us both blue capes. She was a very good seamstress, as is Patrice Hanson, who made the blue cape my LOST daughter Heather is wearing. I think she is around twelve years of age.
There appeared another Messiah around 120 A.D. I believe he raised his beautiful wife from the dead. Consider the story of Lazarus.
On our first date I took Marilyn to see Withering Heights. Later, Marilyn toko me to see the movie ‘Black Orpheus’.
Jon Presco
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Eurydice was the wife of Orpheus, who loved her dearly; on their wedding day, he played joyful songs as his bride danced through the meadow. One day, a satyr saw and pursued Eurydice, who stepped on a viper, dying instantly. Distraught, Orpheus played and sang so mournfully that all the nymphs and deities wept and told him to travel to the Underworld to retrieve her, which he gladly did. After his music softened the hearts of Hades and Persephone, his singing so sweet that even the Erinyes wept, he was allowed to take her back to the world of the living. In another version, Orpheus played his lyre to put Cerberus, the guardian of Hades, to sleep, after which Eurydice was allowed to return with Orpheus to the world of the living. Either way, the condition was attached that he must walk in front of her and not look back until both had reached the upper world. Soon he began to doubt that she was there, however, and that Hades had deceived him. Just as he reached the portals of Hades and daylight, he turned around to gaze on her face, and because Eurydice had not yet crossed the threshold, she vanished back into the Underworld. When Orpheus later was killed by the Maenads at the orders of Dionysus, his soul ended up in the Underworld where he was reunited with Eurydice.
In 1971 my attorney told those who refused to move out of our home on 40 Anderson Street, a four story building on Beacon Hill, to move to the top floor for our safety. I was in a legal battle with the brother-in-law of the head of Boston’s Mafia, and they were losing. This guy was a top-notch attorney. The owner of the grocery store down the street who liked me, said;
“They want their building back. They will hurt you.”
When I heard the door being kicked in on the main floor, I rushed downstairs to find the door to the old managers appartement knocked off its hinges. Then I heard the awful sound of the squatter’s three month old black lab having its throat cut. I shouted;
“Get out there!”
There was silence, and then this question;
“Are you the manager?”
“Yes! Get out!”
“You come in here!”
“We got something for you!” said the second voice.
When I refused, they came out carrying bloody knives. I stood my ground.
In 1970 I awoke on the top floor of a brownstone building in Roxbury, to behold a beautiful young woman standing at the foot of my bed wearing a long blue robe with a hood. She had lovely blonde hair and baby blue eyes. She was right out of a Tolkien Trilogy. She smiled at me, then came and sat on the edge of the bed and asked my name. We exchanged words, and she asked if she could crawl in bed with me. When I later saw a photo of Robert DeGrimston, I understood my Jesus-look was reaping a dividend. This is before Dan Brown, and the idea that Jesus was a sexual being.
Darcy and Janette had been up all night doing LSD, and had come to my commune to crash. Janette wore a black cape with hood. This was the first time I met her. A year later I met Dottie Witherspoon through Janette, whom I saved from the Mafia in a meeting held in a bar down the street. Both young women were members of the Process Church of the Last Judgement that was founded by a couple whom L. Ron Hubbard titled “suppressive persons”
“English couple Mary Anne and Robert DeGrimston (originally Robert Moor and Mary Anne MacLean).[1] Originally headquartered in London it had developed as a splinter client cult group from Scientology,[1] so that they were declared “suppressive persons” by L. Ron Hubbard in December 1965″
In the year 2000, I believe I was titled a “suppressive person” after my meeting with a woman who was at the top of the Scientology Church that had just bought this winery and was turning it into offices to program people. Her husband was off to Africa to end slavery, and she did not like to hear my accusation that her ilk had taken my sixteen year old daughter hostage, and was treating her and her mother – like slaves!
Patrice Hanson disappeared my daughter after that, in hope of getting Heather in the the terrible biography about my late sister, who is the family tree of Jessie Benton, who claims her clan came from outer space – which is what Hubbard believes. I believe the Lyman’s borrowed from the Process and the Scientoglists, as did Charlie Manson, who my ex-brother-in-law, Larry Sidel knew. My friend, Bryan McLean, was invited to the Hollywood residence the night the Manson family butchered Sharon Tate, but, luckily – got detained!
https://rosamondpress.wordpress.com/2011/10/28/bonds-with-angels/
https://rosamondpress.wordpress.com/2012/07/26/jesus-and-orpheus-in-hades/
A year ago the spirit of Rena Christiansen came to live with me. She is still here. She married a Commodore and lived on the Isle of Weight. Her husband died, leaving her with two children. Her grief at being left behind was overwhelming. She had no ties with her natal family, and may not have been accrete by her husband’s family. I believe Rena died in an automobile accident in a foreign land, and her husband’s upper class family took her children into their closed circle. When I began my portrait of Rena – she winged home. She is my Eurydice. She is Andromeda I was her Hero who rescued her by the sea. I took her to the mountain of the ‘Sleeping Maiden’ and showed her heaven, we above the blanket of fog that came in my the sea.
https://rosamondpress.wordpress.com/2013/02/23/fire-angel-of-stella-maris/
Rena was my beloved Muse who married a Commodore who no doubt owned a yacht and went sailing with his beautiful wife and children around the Isle of Wight where they lived. Muses are depicted and Angels.
A year ago Rena came to me, and stayed a month. She walked everywhere I walked. When I lay down, she lay down next to me. I came to believe she was not alive. And, being dead she saw my near-death experience, and the death of my beloved sister – at the edge of the sea. She, had come to save both of us. Now, she wants me to come with her. she sees these horrible betrayals. They are more than one angel can bear. It’s too ugly.
https://rosamondpress.wordpress.com/2012/01/12/stella-maris-rosa-mundi/
The Five of Cups is a card that signifies difficulty, loss, and the challenges of dealing with that loss. The figure in the card wears a black cloak in which he hides his face in apparent despair. At his feet are five cups, three of which have fallen and spilled onto the ground and the other two behind his back remain standing. He does not seem to notice these upstanding cups because he is so focused on the fallen cups instead. Ahead of him a powerful river flows between himself and a castle or home in the distance. To his right is a bridge that can lead him to the security of the house across the river. Despite the fact that this card has a strong indication of loss and tribulation, there is a positive aspect that must be considered. Is your cup half full or half empty?
Upright Five of Cups Tarot Card Meanings
The Five of Cups represents a lack of fulfilment or non-attainment of expected results. You are feeling disappointed that a situation has not turned out as you had hoped, and instead of moving on to greener pastures, you are wallowing in self-pity and regret about what has been lost. The water spilled from the cups shows that the cause for regret is more emotional than financial. You are quickly becoming disillusioned with life and increasingly pessimistic about your future.
The Five of Cups suggests that you are having trouble letting go of the past and learning from your mistakes. This card can often reflect a person who is caught up in the past and unable to move on, missing out on new opportunities. Bitter memories from the past continue to bother you, and often a great deal of the blame for past actions is placed on yourself and your inadequacies. To some it would seem that there is no way out of this situation but the Tarot always shows problems on one hand and solutions on the other.
Forgiveness and the ability to recover after emotional loss are necessary. If you are feeling disappointed by another person’s actions, and then find it within your heart to forgive that person, releasing yourself from the disappointment. You may also need to re-assess your expectations that have led you to this disappointment. Were you expecting too much?
Remember, too, that hindsight is much clearer than foresight and present-day wisdom is gained from the mistakes of the past. Reflect on what lead you to this point and understand what important lessons you can take from the experience. Even when things go pear-shaped, there is always something positive that can be gained by reflecting on the lessons learned.
While it is true that much has been lost, there is still a ray of hope because some of the cups in this card remain full and upright. You must not pity yourself when you find yourself in his situation. Instead of looking at the situation from a ‘glass is half empty’ perspective, look at it from a ‘glass is half
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Reversed Five of Cups Tarot Card Meanings
The reversed Five of Cups shows recovery from regret and an acceptance of the past. Now, you are beginning to realise the full implications of the past and you have come to appreciate the lessons learned from the experience. You may even recognise the value of the painful experience in the broader scheme of things in preparing you for later experiences. You are ready to pick up the remaining two cups that are full of the water of emotional growth and go on.
This card is also about learning to be open and to take risks again. It is a card of a lingering sense of regret, nostalgia and bittersweet memories but the card itself speaks of being hopeful for the future, getting over whatever you need to get over, and of seeing the sun peek through the clouds once again! If you have suffered a broken romance, the reversed Five of Cups signifies an end to the suffering, and a beginning to new loves and relationships, new interests, and new emotional outlets. You are starting to engage with the inspiring, creative and feeling side of life again.
The reversed Five of Cups is about values and knowing what you truly want and what will really make you happiest. It is about the hidden blessings that lie behind obvious disappointments. Sometimes disappointments are required to see through illusions and free you to find what is truly of value in life. Once you have made this transition, you will be free to embrace new opportunities.
Sometimes, the reversed Five of Cups indicates a feeling of being trapped in the past, holding on too tightly to the might-have-beens, and not being able to focus on the positive. The reversal could also indicate buried feelings of regret, that you are not allowing to surface and therefore they never get dealt with and brought to closure. Five is also the number of change, and indicates an emotional destabilisation that is intended to create change in how you approach your life.
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